Spring passed and summer came and went. Judith swam and played with her girl friends. She chose all my maternity clothes and was the first person, besides me, to feel the baby move. It was hard to believe she wouldn’t always be healthy. Those months all too soon slipped away. By mid fall the drugs became ineffective. The evidence showed time was running out for our precious little girl.
I prayed for her healing many times, asking God to make her well because I knew He could. At the time, I didn’t understand His perspective on death and healing. I did know beyond a doubt He would see us through whatever might lie ahead. Of course, we were crushed, but I accepted it early on and knew God would be with us. I simply trusted Him and still rest in the knowledge that He will raise my precious child again.
I learned in our guest room the day I really met Him that His total expression is love. Many times during the darkest days, I slipped again into that room, seeking Him.
He always met me there and renewed my strength. He accompanied me every step of the way.
Judith and Joey’s little brother, Stephen Carter, came into the world less than a month after she went to Heaven. When I started labour, God was so close. In fact, Stephen’s birth was very easy. By His grace, my worries disappeared. I discovered it’s possible to be completely broken hearted, and through it all, feel the peace of God.
Judith left us long ago. Both my sons are men now. Stephen heard all about his sister who adored him first, and he looks forward to seeing her one day.
Joey, who resolved to become a scientist or a doctor in order to find a cure for the disease, which took his sister, is now a medical doctor. We rarely visit without talking about her. We reminisce how God, through her, changed all our lives forever. We will tell her about it one day, but I’m sure she had the full picture the day she went to be with Him.
What a difference it makes when God comes into the picture. Things seem to totally change when we turn our lives and situations over to Him. When He touched Kay, all things changed.
He can, and wants to, do miracles in all our lives the way He did for her.
Sometimes, it takes the hard trials of life for us to look to Him completely and confidently. When we let go of the things we hold on to, He replaces them with more than we can ever imagine.
No, Judith will never be completely replaced or forgotten but Kay released her to God’s care.
If you are holding on to anything, give it, or them, to God and experience the miracles He will give you.